Shit day.

today’s prolly the shittiest day of mylife.. work till so damn bloody late… and what i expected didnt exactly materialize..

today’s horrid.

im so upset that i dont wana talk to anyone. really.
not even al…..
poor him.. has to leave me alone for abit.

everithing doesnt turn our right. cambodia fare just increased by 400bloody bucks, the kirsflyer’s login cant work… had 1001 problem logging in 2 blogger.. flare up damn easily.

Some food for thougth for tonight….
jeremiah 29:11, “for i know the plans i have for you” declares the lord, plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give u a hope and future

Don’t bother explaining yourself, cos those people who love you don’t need them and people who need them don’t deserve it….

good night world….. may tomorrow be better than today. so i wont have 2 drink myself to sleep…

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An aging val is an angry val

monday.. no blues. supprisingly.
maybe its because i had a great weekend.. fun, enjoyable, and FULL of sleeeeeepppp!!!! worked till bout 8ish, then headed down for a quick dinner at my usual duck shop. haha. think the others feel “forced” that they have to eat DUCK.

there’s this new girl frm SIA that joined the coy.. Prisc, wana consider joining us next time?? 🙂 she’s quite a looker, has the style i guess… when we just randomly asked them go guess our age, she and another new girl guessed that i’m like 26/27… DEFINATELY not less than 25! !@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*() OF cuz i dont hold it 2 heart.. i mean.. its a compliment. isnt it????

but still!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i need to do something about it… honestly. is it my height? the way i behave? they the way i walk/talk? or is it just because they were not like that when they were 22???? or am i really old? sigh…. what happen?? just when i thought i was tracking welll…. looking great.. and WHAM! i realize i was benchmarking myself to ppl 4-5 years older than myself. wrong wrong wrong. really something wrong! maybe my face has lost its “glow”… maybe…. i DONT KNOW LARRRRR how can i look that old!!!! when i was 12, ppl say i look 14…. when i’m 14.. ppl say i look 18 (cuz of my height).. still at 168 btw…. when im 18, ppl say i look 21… (and they say its a good sign).. cuz when im 21, id still look 21.. now that im 22.. ppl say i look 27?????? WHAT I BIG JUMP!!!!!!!!! its no longer + 2-3 years.. its like a whopping + 5 years CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no offence. really i dont dislike/hate them.they’re merely stating the truth. maybe even treating it like a compliment. but ME? 27?!! ok. enough whining.

time 2 put more MASK… people, if u want to buy me a gift, PLEASE, get me those anti aging stuff. i need it. badly. I STILL THINK IM PRETTY WATTTTT (tho those readers who cant tell that im just kidding, and strongly believe that i’ve got a ego of a gorilla, this is a figure of speech.. my ego’s just 1cm bigger than the avg human race)

Its tuesday……. tomorrow would be another day of “battle”…… i wana look young again! 😦 how? what make up shld i use? or shld i NOT use make up!?

All these while, ive never liked growing up….. not to mention growing old..

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11/10/07

its me agaaaiinnn. back to blog… but think that my blogs are really boring. full of whines. nothing else.

TGIF ppl!!! TGIF!!!

mum’s pissed with me today. for i dont know wat reason. but maybe its because my room’s in a mess and she ended up tidying it for me….. 😦

i love putting mask and blogging. feels good. feels relaxing. after that, i’d just plong into bed n sleeeeeeeeepppp..

Deal dint got tru again today. ugh.
its alrite.. id hang in there…. there’s so many ppl supporting me. im SURE i can do it.. SURE CAN!!!!.. even my colleages are supporting me! jeff’s rite, we ought to be glad that its a team based environment, whereby there’re no Knifes hidden behind everyone’s back.. probably a couple of daggers here n there.. haha

got kinda pissed with someone today. the person was kinda rude……. i hate it when im being teased bout the little actions i do. i.e. the way i laugh, the way i walk.. etc. everyone has their own habits wat!!! ugh. really not sure if u’re a pain in the ass at times.. or just immature. nevertheless, i guess i’d just have to tolerate your nonsense.. just like how you’re apparently tolerating mine.

New jobs today… makes me feel “indebted” to the person.. i wonder why i’m being sucha “failure” at work sometimes…. deals don go tru.. BD calls not exactly working.. maybe because i’m too YOUNG!??!?!?!?!?! ugh…. hate it. i MUST buck up!!!… i really DO feel indebted, now that you got me this deal…… you make it seem like its so “simple” to work on, but for obvious reasons its not……. i dont come WITH that back ground.. i dont KNOW people in there, of cuz its hard for me. if u wanna do it, by all means, just TAKE it k….. i just hate it when i am “beneath” someone. i do NOT like the feeling of being lousier than someone. i may be younger n all.. but it doenst mean im lousier in anyway. ugh. fine. you have the experience. i lose. ROAR!!! im so unhappy…. but nevertheless, im definately thankful to have you around.. to help me around the way.

I swear i’d work my way up…. Someday, when im looking back at this post, i’d know that everything’s merely a piece of cake. i’d laugh at all the trouble im having at work right now, because i’d know that i’ve SURVIVED all the crapshit.. and I MADE IT that far…. someday.. just someday….. i really will……. for now…. its back to the good ol’ hard work. I really am putting in the effort.

I promise to flood the board with my name and my placements. i will.

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MORE rejections…

Oh. decided to change my mind…. On the top of my wishlist would be a set of tailored Jacket Suit!!!! i so want those sexy A-line skirts!!! (and/or pants), that suit perfectly! because my office wear now are “wearable”… but not exactly fitting. ahh.. i wana look HOTT HOTT HOTT~~~.. not for any particular reason duh. but because my skirt keeps riding up my waist! which is realli irritating. everitime i walk up n down.. i need 2 pull my skirt. “dah-glam”…

met up with prisc for a quick bit. managed to sneak away a lil earlier.. like.. 15mins earlier!??!?! den went to HK cafe with prisc, where we ordered a horribly tasting (and horribly big) tau hueh, and a couple others….. den we went to walk a lil at sun tec 🙂 miss her…. imagine seeing her everyday.. and now.. 😦 sighh..

stepped up the weighing machine tdy… @#$%^&*() i put on 3 kg already! WTF!!! i dont tink i look fat lor.. but its evident that i’ve “put on” the extra pounds. im so on diet. SO SO SO on diet. no wayyyyyy im getting all pudgy n fat. ugh.

more upsetting news at work today. emotional roler coaster. really!!!.. offers, higher expectations, counteroffers. u name it. piece of shit.. really… am i really that incopetent!? ugh. new people in the office again… 2 girls.. 1 guy after me…. tot i was new… then there was pat kuan jeff…… now even more!?!?!?! whole office made up of new ppl! hhaa… when ppl ask why we dont “mingle” with them? jeff say that we’re comfortable already.. and they shld find their own clique.. tsk! so cliqish…. high school style.. hahaa. but hack care laa.. im comfy wif my own closer colleagues. there’s still my placements to worry about.. ROARRRRR

Side note. im realli grateful for all the support.. frm Al, my dear girls, my family n my colleagues. 🙂

P/S: i love fake lashes… why? cuz i dont need that much eye make up remover, it saves my cotton pads, drop less eye lash, save more $$$$$!!!!!! and BETTER effect…… oh. i use it with my double eyelid sticker.. ya la ya la.. fake. i know.. but i likeeee.. 🙂 gona buy the more “drama mamma” lashes sooN! yEEeehHaHhh!!! stocking up on it 🙂

back to work tomorrow….. realli.. realli really…. im happy there, but yet, its upsetting. tomorrow will be a better day. yup. it will.

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Charlie tagged…tho i wish i didnt see it.. but since she tagged……. let me be boliao for awhile…

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:

1. ANG POW (come on.. be practical…)
2. DS Lite
3. Beauty Supplies
4. Work clothes
5. Perm-ed hair

Answer the following questions:

1. The person/people who tagged you is/are?
Charlie Low Jia Yi

2. Your relationship with him/her is…
My sunshine co colleague. ex cluster D mate, then to cluster B, den she went full time, then i left. hahahaha… my constant eating kaki. she looks so damn skinny, and eats hell lot. She knows i love her 😛

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her…
– SHE IS afraid of getting a round face
– Has very strong opinion/belief, will always stand up for it..
– Loves Dogs
– Tai Tai in the making
– Shops like there’s no tomorrow.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you…
– i realli dont know….. alot i guess? she’s always packing food, listening 2 me whine, helpingmake tough decisions to leave sunshine co.. etc. i guess it’ll be when i was returning the luggage to her, i SWEAR i thought it was in my car boot, only to reach there and realize it wasnt…

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you…
– “BIMBO!!!” … “AAA GRADE!”

6. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she will…
– be as broke as i am

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be…
– $$ management.. hahahaa

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will…
– take away all her nice clothes and let her DIE….

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be…
– I stole her clothes (and food)

10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is…
– to return her, her luggage bag, and WISH that she’d have a great trip to taiwan!

11. Your overall impression of him/her is…
– someone who will be by your side whenever you need her. no matter how long you havent kep in touch. someone who is strong and weak, depending on when and how you see it…. someone who can eat alot, and never grow fat, is on the verge of being Grossly underweight, and yet complaining bout her weight. (girls mahh..)

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
– putting up a strong front, indecisive (u know it when i cant choose the color of my nails), happy, cheerful, friendly, talkative, noisy, think too much, petty. hahaha

13. The character you love of yourself are…
– loving myself for who i am.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are…
– Lousy $$ manager. , indecisive

15. The most ideal person you want to be is…
– my mum.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them…
– Thank you, and i love you. Despite not saying/showing it.. i still do.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you…
(1) Key
(2) Prisc
(3) erm…..
(4)
(5)
(6)
(7)
(8)
(9)
(10)

Guess i cant continue.. hahaha

Who is No.6 having relationship with?

Is No.9 a male or female?

If No.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?

How about No.8 and 5?

What is No.2 studying about?

When was the last time you had a chat with No.3?

What kind of music band does No.8 like?

Does No.1 has any siblings ?

Will you woo No.3 ?

How about No.7 ?

Is No.4 single ?

What is the surname of no.5?

What is the nickname of no.10?

What is the hobby of no.4?

Do no.5 and 9 get along well?

Where is no.2 studying at?

Have you try developing feelings for no.8?

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Missing Charlie…

Gonna meet charlie n alba tmr! haha Kinda excited actually… got to realize that things have changed in the sunshine co…. its been hell long since i met anyone of them, (and im guilty) of not taking enough effort to make things work!.. sigh.. with so little time at hand, and so much to do, there’s realli little i can do… honest! … nevertheless, i realli do treasure them… hopefully it’ll be much easier 2 meet up nxt time?? 😦 i promise id try 2 make it a point… at least once in 2 weeks! miss charlie….. miss dabao-ing food for her….. no one in my current company can match my appetite… (no girl at least).. hahaha

work has been not that bad… those who use to make noise are not making so much noise these days… will need to thred carefullly nevertheless. boss has been on LEAVE! that explains the less stress.. haha. nevertheless, it’s still hard managing the candidates. ugh…. some are pissing me off. REAL bad.

guess in this line.. its really all up to god. we can do as much as we want to do, but at the end of everything, we still gotta pray hard. Thank god for supportive colleagues. my front n left colleagues are strong christians. right is a dormant christian, diagonally left is a “work-in-progress” christian.. hahaa… that explains why work’s much easier these days.

I still do love my job despite it all.

May the placements come in this week… ive been stressed the whole weekend over it.. please please please please come tru….

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